am i jus a fool?

before i called u:
i think blogging has become part of my life ever since she left me.. there is so much things i wanna tell her but she just kept avoiding me.. i really wished at least she could give me the chance to start all over again.. but guess i was wrong.. she simply jus wanted me out of her life.. all the "lets be frens" she talked abt.. nth came true.. if anything were to happen to u.. this is the time when i wont hesitate...

1017 pm : called you.

after i called you:
u sounded so fierce, so tired.. u met apple they all which i sms her earlier she said she is not seeing u.. so i dono who i shd believe.. u talk to me like no feelings.. even if there is any feeling it shd be anger and wanting me to get lost.. i m terribly hurt.. u said u will meet me next week provided i called wj they all along.. cool~ but i don think u might be meeting me.. maybe u r jus lying to me.. tell me wat had i did wrong? that made u change ur heart so fast? u cant.. u said u can very long don sms me.. well thats good for u.. you don behave like rainy anymore.. i was utterly disappointed... i told myself this.. if u really lied to me that u wanna meet me, maybe i shd jus die.. i really hate this feeling of chasing u(my dearest darling laopo pig) when u don appreciate me at all.. 4yrs and u did this kind of thing to me.. from today onwards.. 9 days.. if u didnt show up.. u will nv see me open my eyes again..