i m still fragile..

i spent today in a very cheerful mood.. saw rainy online at nite.. so happy.. decided not to meet any frens for today.. jus wanna stay at home chat with her.. pei her.. today at camp overheard 1 camp mate chatting with his ger.. so wen rou.. so caring.. i realise how bad i m.. i knw wat it takes to be a good bf now.. but where is my ger now?.. (i can only say 'haiz')...

she seem to be like really left me le.. no more feelings for me.. i m totally sad.. but still could hear her laughter.. i m very contented.. soon she stopped talking.. and went missing together with my dear fren wj.. all left me all alone.. really felt so bad.. think back of foolish things like dying again.. i dono how long i m going to go thru this.. maybe one day i will be gone that fast...

i start to wonder wats in her mind.. and i really felt very sad.. i lost her.. i lost my soul...i lost me..