mounting day..

Today i went mounting.. but i brought my lappy with me.. played a game of dota at gate and listened to music and felt sad.. played soccer and had blister.. bathed and went to edit pics in lappy while listening to songs that she liked.. that she sang last week at ktv @ chevron.. its only last week that we where still hugging so tightlyand i was still able to smell her hair.. now? i m all alone in this world.. i missed you, dear..

i kept doing things that rainy did last time.. editing pics.. create photo slides.. thinking of her..i really can feel her woes now.. when last time she keep doing all those little things and i nv appretiated it.. now i knw only little things showshow much love a person has for another.. i neglected all this.. haiz..

day after day.. i think of the past.. den i found out every detail of our love life.. every where i went i have memories of her.. sometimes i jus had to control my tears.. hai.. now i realise that i have so many mistakes that i had no more chance to correct.. i start to hate myself.. tml is sunday le... i really want to meet her! wat can i do? even if i asked all around and knw where she work.. i also dono if i shd go..

god.. can i ask u how much more suffering must i take before i can hug her in my arms again..?
2030hrs at gate: jus now tried to slp becos i got 4hrs break at 430pm and woke up at 523pm thinking of her feeling the pain in the heart..cried again in darkness alone.. hoping nobody saw or heard.. and think of many things again.. i still think thatshe is only TRYING to be cruel to end this relationship harshly.. dear.. if u read this.. stop wat u are doing le..lets go back to time we were so happy so much in love.. at least let me turn back time till the day we had our last meal at kfc when i feed u eat.. before i made the mistake of my life asking for separation..